Dear Depression…

My mom’s relationship with me had two levels - best friend or public enemy number one.  When I started spending all my weekends at Jake’s house, it just upset her more. She knew how much I loved his family and it drove her crazy because it was clear that I wanted to spend my time…

Dear Falling In Love…

I don’t even remember our second date, it was as though we were immediately inseparable after date one. We began texting constantly and it was just assumed that we were spending Friday and Saturday night together, unless I was grounded for some reason my mom made up  or he had plans with his friends.  All…

To Our First Date…

It was Friday and  I could not have been more excited. We had kept texting, and it felt natural and normal. He was funny, nice, and kind. He was on the hockey team, he had an older brother and sister and a younger sister. It felt like I knew more about him than I did…

To The Rest Of Hello Again…

My heart was in my stomach accompanied by butterflies. I couldn’t believe he was standing in front of me, and I couldn’t believe that he remembered me.  “I’m good. I’m just here with my friends for the game. How are you?” (What else would I be doing at a football game?) “I’m good, we are…

Dear Hello Again…

The fall air was crisp and dry, easy to breath, and perfect for football. My friends and I took turns watching the game and talking. The girls would all go to the bathroom together and talk about the boys. Something about a group of girls and boys in high school, it seems everyone pairs off.…

Dear Friday Night Football…

The group of girls that I spent the football games with were the same that I spent lunch with. They were the girls I played softball with and now that I was my own person I was starting to actually have them as real friends. We would actually hang out outside of the school grounds.…

To Backing Out…

The spring in my step of being single was only intensified by being asked to homecoming. ME! I was a new person, I wasn’t forcing a smile on my face and looking at my feet when I walked. I had no one’s hand bruising my arm and pulling me where I needed to go, and…

Dear Thank You For Asking…

All of a sudden my life was flipped upside down, in a great way. Suddenly, I wasn’t dreading school and the weekends. My phone was no longer used as a weapon to scare  and control me. I was free.  The people that I had started talking to suddenly became friends and I was enjoying being…